26 Weeks... 2 Weeks Down... Whose Counting?

26 Weeks!

Today I am 26 weeks pregnant with twins. That's 182 days down, 15 days being admitted passed, 56 more days of being pregnant and being admitted to go! But like the title says, whose counting?!!? Ha. Me. 8 weeks. I can do 8 more weeks. My body can do 8 weeks. These boys can do 8 weeks. Possibly more! It just depends on how they are doing. Crazy to want to be in here longer, but if it's for the health of these boys then so be it.

Has this been easy? Honestly, it has been hard, but nothing like I expected. The absolute hardest part is being away from Mabel. I get teary eyed once (who am I kidding, multiple times) a day thinking about what I'm missing with her. Fortunately, I get pictures of her all day from Brendan, her babysitter, my parents, her teacher, friends, etc. My army! They keep me updated on the beautiful life my daughter is living outside of this hospital. Seeing her happy is what's getting me through. I am so thankful to all of those that are keeping her life as normal as possible while adding in so much fun and love.

My days go by pretty much the same each day. Keeping to a schedule seems to be keeping me sane. Vitals taken every 4 hours, except between 10pm and 6am, they let me sleep! Still waking up with monitoring at 6am, then it's either back to sleep or I'm up making my bed, cleaning my room, showering, making coffee, eating breakfast then its out of this room I go! I try to go outside every morning after breakfast to read my devotional and spend some time with God outside of this little room. This beautiful weather the past few days has really helped! Fall is my absolute favorite!

The doctors round around 11:00 so I come back to the room and either watch some TV or dive into my new obsession of monogramming! I've really got a problem. I spend hours looking at designs! Then it's lunch around noon, maybe a nap and then monitoring again at 2:00. Luckily for me, my days are broken up by visitors! I've had so many of you come visit me and it really takes the monotony out of my day. I'm also lucky to have really sweet nurses and staff who will stay and chat with me for a bit every time they come and go.

I've learned that between 3:00 and 10:00 are the hours that I struggle with finding things to do the most. So I've started going back outside in the afternoons to read, or I go walk, or weather depending I stay in and monogram. I honestly try to get out of this room as much as I can. Being outside keeps me happy and as long as I'm allowed, I'll continue to try and spend most of my time outdoors. Then it's dinner around 6:00 and passing time until I go back on the monitors at 10:00.

The worst days are days I don't see Mabel. To add to that, the days I don't see her and the boys act up are the worst. I'm already sad from not seeing her then the anxiety of the boys not doing exactly what they're supposed to do sends my into hyperdrive. I start thinking of all of the worst case scenarios. I try to give it to God. I try not to let my mind get the best of me, but when the nurses are in and out all night hooking me up to monitors, it's very stressful. Thankfully, this has only happened a handful of times and my doctor's don't seem to be worried about it. I actually spoke to my doctor yesterday and he said "You're doing great, you really are". That brought me some reassurance. Now if we can just keep doing great for eight more weeks!

My room gets cozier as the days go by. I add a few more personal touches here and there but honestly it wouldn't be near as cozy or smell as good without all of the beautiful flowers so many of you have sent me. THANK YOU! They are always such an unexpected and beautiful surprise!

I guess I should elaborate on how the boys are doing! Outside of the infrequent rapid heart rate for Baby B (that keeps me up monitoring all night), they are doing really well. I had an ultrasound on Monday and everything looked good! Bloodflow in both of their cords looked good, both had adequate amounts of fluid and their heart rates and movement checked out great too! Let's just keep that up boys! I'm waiting on the doctors to round now and I also have another ultrasound today so I'm praying that all goes well!

Thank you so much for reading this lengthy post. I am forever thankful for your prayers! Stay tuned for more updates!

Isaiah 4:10

So do not fear, for I am with you, do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

Hebrews 13:5

Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.

Matthew 11:8

Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest.